So, I realize I haven't updated in a while, but I moved out of that hell hole a few weeks ago and moved into a suite with two of my closest friends at massart. My roommate is super nice but she's leaving after this semester to save money on housing, but it's okay because it looks like another of my friends might be moving in here next semester. Everything's been going really well and I know I'm going to be going out of my mind for the majority of my ass-long winter break. Which in High School sounds awesome, but now that I'm in college I realize how much it sucksssss. Because it''s TOO long, and home is boring, and I'm going to miss the city and my dorm and my friends and the library and the galleries, and the museums, and BLICK'S! OH HOW I WILL MISS MY DICK BLICK'S! It is so lovely and amazing. But mostly I will miss not having a hundred+ people around all the time. I love my building. Even though the kitchen smells horrid and the furniture in the quiet rooms and lounge is covered in MYSTERY STAINS. I love it here.

I am also going out of my mind, a little, though. Oh, finals. I FINALLY FINISHED GLAZING! WOO! But I still have my big ass self portrait to finish for Tuesday morning, a little self portrait to do for Wednesday, a short paper (since I've done my final now) for Monday, and a book project, that I love but is very time consuming, for Thursday. It's lots, even though it might not sound like it because the large self portrait will take me HOURS to finish, and the book--- each page takes me hours, and I still have a number of pages to go and then I have to make covers and bind the thing. It's crazy but I love it.

Art school is bootifur.

I cannot even effectively describe (although I have tried now on many accounts) the cruelty my roommate has shown me for, as she will admit, no other even remotely tangible reason but that she believes "our personalities just don't match." This, of course, implies that she would have at least based her defeatist, and frankly, to me, rather immature belief (considering our circumstances) upon getting to know me, at least a little bit before coming to a conclusion, but she has instead actively and continually made conscious efforts to ignore me, to block me out, and to learn as little about me as she can possibly manage, in the apparent hope that I would just disappear.

I love MassArt.


My roommate seems hell bent on reverting me back to the impossibly depressed, bed-ridden pile of goo I was for the better part of six months junior year.

200. My middle initial is:
M. (AMP it up!... yes, I am a dork)

199. I was born on:
May 19

198. I am really:
stretched.

197. My cell phone company is:
verizon

196. My eye color is:
green/hazel

194. My ring size is:
uh... 8? 9? Somthin like that

193. My height is:
5' 3"

192. I am allergic to:
wool, onion family

191. I was born in:
Cali

190. I live in:
MA

189. Last book you read:
and finished? I'm in the middle of like 6 books right now >__< Ummm... I think Handmaid's Tale.

188. My bed is:
bloody and sheetless right now. Woohoo TMI!

187: One thing you hate about yourself:
fat

179. My favorite holiday is:
Halloween, anything with cake

178. The perfect kiss is:
head holding and chaste, top of head while embracing, or corner of the mouth.

173. Do you like being single/taken?
haha, I don't know. I haven't really experienced one (guess which)

170. What did you do yesterday?:
computer shit, installing stuff and all, some packing, tried to catch up on some sleep

:::I Do (YES)/Do Not (NO) Believe In:::

142. Love at first sight?
no. Attraction, infatuation, connection, and joy sure. Not love love though.

141. Luck?
not sure

140. Fate?
not really

139. Yourself?
try to

138. Aliens?
not X-files like, but extra-terrestrial life, sure, who knows?

137. Heaven?
no.

136. Hell?
no.

135. Ghosts?
yes.

134. Horoscopes?
sometimes.

133. Soulmates?
sort of.

:::Which is Better?:::

129. Hugs or Kisses?
depends on the type

128. Drunk or High:
hahahaha, neither. Stoned people are generally less obnoxious to be tuck around than drunk people though.

127. Phone or Online:
online!
UGGA FUCK YOU PHONES

126. Red heads or black haired:
depends on the person it's on

case in point: me with black hair=fucking scary, people with naturally black hair= generally really pretty

kel with red hair, my sister's hair, my sister's inlaws' hair: very nice, people with darker skin with red hair= generally pretty bizarre looking

125. Blondes or Brunettes:
brunettes? I likes my brown hair. Blonde seems too involved. There's all this crap you have to do to maintain it or whatever. I like my low maintenance mud head, thanks.

124. Hot or cold:
cold weather, cold beverage, hot shower, hot meals

123. Summer or winter?
neither! FALL AND SPRING

121. Chocolate or vanilla:
both!

120. Night or day:
night, unless it's really nice weather that day (which has been quite rare for the last like.. year)

119. Oranges or apples?
apples

118. Curly or straight hair:
curly or wazy. Unless it's really short hair, than: straight

:::Here's What I Think About:::

116. Abortion:
Woman's RIGHT! But don't think I could ever do it. Should be last resort, which is something I think just about anyone can agree with. Contraception, yo!

115. Backstabbers:
ick

114. Parents:
UGGGH Not going into this...

:::Last time I:::

103. Kissed someone: like on the cheek? I think on Sat, at my sister's wedding. Like for real? ummm.. 8th grade? Oh wait no! Honey in the hallway in 9th grade. Yup.

102. Had food: hour ago?

101. Seen someone I haven't seen in a while: Sat, at my sister's wedding... lots of people!

100. Cried in front of someone: QUITE AWHILE ago, surprisingly enough

99. Grew: haha, a little bit in high school

:::MISC:::

90. Who is the ditziest person you know: Lucy, myself, and Hanna probably

89. Who makes you laugh the most: Mike, Angela, Hanna, Leland, Nate

87. The last movie I saw? Dark Knight.

82. What I don't understand is: um... a lot of stuff.

80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received is: any "I'm too tired" type shit, "It's no big deal", no answer at all, all of that passive stuff

76. Something I will really miss when I leave home is: amchi and doggy

75. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: MOVE IN!!!!!!!!!!

74. The thing that I'm not looking forward to is: the rest of this week until move in.

73. Tomorrow: I have so much shit to do.

72. Today: my head hurts, at work for 8 hours, alarm didn't go off, laundry, no dinner

71. Next Summer: no effin idea... hopefully not here the whole time. I might kill myself.

70. Next Week: COLLLLEEEEGGGGGGGGGGEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

67. People call me: crazy

62. The person who knows the most about me is: probably my sister or angela?

60. The most difficult thing to do is: so much stuff -__- I DON'T KNOW. Umm.... ANSWERING THIS QUESTION!

59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: nope. Bit hard to when you don't drive. Bus driver got a "slowing" ticket one morning while I was on the bus though... that might count.

56. My zodiac sign is: Taurus

55. The first person I talked to today was: some random old guy who caught me spaz dancing with my headphones on while I was walking to work this morning

54. First time you had a crush: like, pre school

53. The one person who I can't hide things from: myself?

52. Last time someone said something you were thinking?: prob. at the wedding

51. Right now I am talking to: no one

50. What is your dream job?
Artist well traveled

49. First job?:
mother's helper

48. I have/will get a job at:
an ebay store

47. I have these pets:
dog: roosevelt

46. I hope: I make good friends

45. The worst sound in the world: fucking generic alarm clocks, foam core being cut with a table saw

44. The person that makes me cry the most is: probably my mom

39. My boyfriend/girlfriend is: non-existant

35. Florida or Hawaii: Hawaii.

33. My favorite piece of clothing: Overalls, my scarf, knit dress

32. My favorite sport is: to do= kyaking, bowling; to watch= soccer

31. Last time I cried: this morning

30. My friends are: going off or being left behind

29. My computer is: MACBOOK PRO, oh love <3

28. The school I go to is: MassArt

27. Last person I got mad at: mother

22. The all-time best movie is: Wall-E

21. The all-time best feeling in the world is: ineffable

18. The most annoying person you know is: haha, wow, there's a good competition for ya

17. I lose all respect for people who: continuously refuse to take any responsibility for their actions

16. The movies I have cried at are: hmmm... not any recently. Not sure.

15. Closest friends: know themselves

14. TV channels you watch: Food, Discovery, Comedy (mostly)

13. Favorite web site: facebook, npr, the blogs and stuff I frequent

12. I want to be: done packing and moving in, instead

11. The worst pain I was ever in was: physical or emotional? Physical was probably those times when my entire torso gradually seized up and convulsed for about four hours until the muscles around my rib cage constricted until I couldn't breathe-- because of my fucking period. There's probably more painful stuff that I've blocked out. But yeah, that shit was worse than any wisdom tooth pain. Emotional was about a ~4 month period beginning about 20 months ago.

10. My favorite word is: frolic, spelunking, concur

9. My room is: such a mess right now

5. My weakness is: food

4. What I like about the opposite sex is: more secure, humorous

3. Who broke your heart? several people when I was like... 6

2. One thing that makes you feel great is: finishing well

1. I filled out 200 Questions because: I have nothing to do, and I like to talk about myself (I concur with KEL)

I'm tired...

I want school to start.

I should go to sleep.

Oh, yeah, will post more stuff soon... ish.

And will try to find time for that tutorial request.

>.< I am so bad at DeviantArt, people.

Also. HATES the summer. When will it go away?

.... THAT'S HAPPENED TO ME IN THE LAST FEW WEEKS.


1. Cat is lost, there's been no sign of him for 10 days now

2. Got the bill from my school, and guess what? My mom still hasn't filled out the tuition remission form I gave her three weeks before and now I have four days before I loose my schedule; and my mom's boss, who needs to sign the form, is on vacation. Which she knew was coming for the last three weeks. And I am bad at budgeting my time? Oh that was not stressful at all

3. Found a cheap tablet on Amazon--- dub it one of THE two good things to happen to me this summer (the other being Wall-E) , and now that I already ordered it, it's out of stock and is not going to be restocked.

4. Found large dead frog on the floor of my boss's basement, where I had to package stuff for shipping. I may have stepped on it by accident. Oh fun.

5. Pulled out a collapsed USPS box from the stash under the desk in aforementioned basement and had 30 plus spiders come gushing out after it.
Which led me to a full on panic attack.

6. JESUS CHRIST will it ever stop STORMING??! WTF

7. Contact with friends count: once in three weeks

8. The compact fluorescent bulb in the lamp next to me got struck by lightning, made a fun noise and burnt out in a flash, leaving this lovely burning plastic and mercury smell. Also, scared the crap out of me

9. Mother talking about putting down my dog (who, despite being deaf, blind (and he's been mostly blind his entire life, so that's nothing new) and arthritic, is completely healthy)

10. I still haven't gotten my school email

11. My dad might be taking my mom to court again

12. International shipping

13. Mom is constantly freaking out about Katherine's wedding

14. Mom is constantly freaking out period.

15. Today, finally feeling compelled to do so, I spent three hours cleaning my bathtub, boiling pots of tea, straining out the loose leaves, filling my bathtub, soaking the quilt set I'd been wanting to tea stain for almost a year now, tracking down vinegar, setting the stain, draining the tub, cleaning up the kitchen and bathroom, ringing out the quilts, cleaning the bathtub again, and throwing the quilts in the dryer before I had to go to work, only to return to find that my mom-- who's had nothing to do with my laundry for the last three years, mind you-- pulled the quilts out of the dryer, and, deciding they "smelt funny", threw them into the wash, set to hot, and added bleach.



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